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Friday Links: I’m ignoring the news
Happy Friday!

I’m not actually ignoring the news but Bayern beat Arsenal this week which made me happy (Bayern are the only one of my Champions League picks for the family draw, so all my hope rests with them!)
Biden’s Increasingly Contradictory Israel Policy. Obviously, things have moved somewhat over the last week but Israel needs consequences…
Former head of Shin Bet: Hamas’s nightmare is a two-state solution. It’s really easy, when solutions are complicated and no-one wins, to pick a side and stay firmly entrenched there. Ami Ayalon, hasn’t done that. He’s clear about what he wants and also clear that Israel won’t get it without treating Palestinians as people. I’m currently reading his memoir and it’s both hopeful and heartbreaking. On the back of this I also watched ‘The Gatekeepers’ which I would recommend.
Thames Water nationalisation plan could move bulk of £15bn debt to state. Thatcher’s privatisation was a stupid idea and will cost the country a lot of money!
What Cass review says about surge in children seeking gender services. I think caring for children is in crisis. Just look at how terrible the CAHMS waiting lists are right now. I also think that parents are in a continuous state of low level crisis and don’t have good coping skills and therefore can’t teach children coping skills and goodness knows teenagers have to try on a lot of personalities before they settle to who they are. I think teenagers are telling us something, it’s about how uncomfortable and uncertain they feel and whether that expresses itself in gender questioning or anxiety adults need to deal with it. Which takes time and money and understanding. None of which the NHS has nor is the government prepared to fund the NHS so that it does.
UK facing food shortages and price rises after extreme weather
Liz Truss has kindly offered to ‘save the west’. But who will save her from her delusions?
‘The courgettes were so good last year, I got a tattoo of one’: life on a Birmingham allotment
Letting grass grow long boosts butterfly numbers, UK study proves. I’m not lazy, I’m helping the butterflies!

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Monday Miscellany: Too much to do, not enough time for lounging around!
Happy Monday!

Last week was a good week. At work it was a reporting week which is always busy, there’s a lot going on. I’m still working on the balance between the new role and the old one. It’s definitely all about balance and I’m notoriously bad at balance.
Outside of work, I got to catch up with Kathy and Sue. Ma and I finally went up to see Ben, Laura and the boys! We had a lovely lunch but did have to contend with QPR losing 3-0 to Hull. Poor Ben. QPR need to pull their socks up even more than my beloved Chelsea do!

I got an afternoon on the plot on Sunday, I feel that given how sore my back is that the plot should look tidier!

Plans for this week are more of the same. I’m writing this on the train into the office. So at least two days in the office and the usual stuff.
As Ma reminded me this morning, 10pm bedtime and getting up 6:30am latest, exercise every day (my back is demanding yoga and stretching!) and good habits generally! I need to spend some time organising the flat and more time on the plot!
Socially, I’m going to a birthday party on Saturday night!
Have a good week!
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Tagged 2024, April, April 2024, family, How I Live, miscellany, Monday Miscellany
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Allotment Adventures: Slowly preparing for Spring
Getting the plot ready for Spring is taking longer than I planned, partly because of time and also because weather.
However, we are making progress. The new paving stones are down and most of the blueberries are on them.

I’ve extensively weeded and woodchipped the front of the plot. I need to net the goosberries in a week or two and think about how to cover the blueberries! Most of the things I need to do down there are about pruning some plants and/or need compost which should come sometime in the next couple of weeks!
So my attention has turned to the back and the grass infested chaos that is/was the squash beds. As an April treat we’ve subscribed to the garden waste collection (I don’t think much of the cutting of the service to March to November but keeping it at the same price!) but I don’t have space to effectively compost weeds to get them hot enough to kill them effectively and I don’t have a car to take green waste to the dump so this is my solution. Yes, I shall be transporting a green wheelie bin through the streets of Ealing every two weeks but needs must as the devil drives. Pray for my back!

It’s really overgrown, but I have to have it sorted for the time the compost arrives, so best get on it.
Other things, I bought some trees. Patio trees a cherry, a pear and an apple (I’m unbothered about the apple but I did want the cherry and the pear!)

Plans for this week are to finish weeding the squash beds and paths and woodchip, plant new potatoes, pot up the mini trees and if there’s any time left sow some carrots, carlin peas, peas and beetroot. I’d also like to clear the kale from the poly and have a bit of a tidy!
Tune in next week to see how much I manage!
Monday Miscellany: Operation Get A Grip
Happy Monday!

So 2024 did not get off to the start I’d intended. The whole menopause/hysteroscopy/coil thing was not epic and is still ongoing (it’s much less painful and I’m still bleeding) but I’m feeling a bit more myself and it’s Spring, so 12 hours of light a day is always helpful especially when I’m miserable.
I’m not actually sure that I am miserable, nothing is really wrong, but I’m a bit stuck. So stuck, I went back into therapy because something is not working. There is a possibility that this is just menopause and I’m open to that, but I am on HRT and that doesn’t seem to be unsticking me.
This is the bit about being a grown up and having a depressive bent, that I really don’t like. Whether its depression rearing its head again or a menopause symptom, I need to deal with it or it’ll get worse. Dealing with it is the same as it’s always been, having and sticking to a routine, it’s taking my vitamins, it’s keeping the house organised, it’s going into the office, and making decent time for rest and activity. It’s showing up in my life and doing the work.
It drives me nuts, I’m good at flashes of brilliance not slow consistency, but this requires consistency and one foot in front of the other. So I’m back on my bullshit.
So this week, I’m aiming for two office days (probably Tuesday and Wednesday), 10pm bedtime, bringing back the golden hour and remembering to take my collagen and vitamins. Yeah, it’s pretty much my SAD protocol but in the Spring. A little focus never hurt.
I’m trying..
Friday Links:
Happy Friday!

It has been a very long time, the news is terrible, work is busy and I’ve been distracted but here are some links. It’s not that cheerful…
The Shoah after Gaza. This is from the London Review of Books and long but worth a read
This was not an accident, it was deliberate. Seven Gaza aid workers including UK, US and Australian citizens killed in Israeli strike, charity says. I’ve been outraged since October, Hamas are a terrorist organisation, I think they are wrong but they are terrorists, I don’t ever expect them to do the decent thing. Israel cannot says ‘what about Hamas?’ they are a state and their army is killing civilians in a territory it occupies. We’ll ignore for right this minute, the support they received from Israel to undermine the PLO. The most moral army in the world? If you believe that, I have a flying pig to sell you with those magic beans.
Jacques Chirac is alleged to have said to Netanyahu. “I do not believe a word that comes out of your mouth. Your entire policy consists of provoking the Palestinians.” I hear that every time I hear an Israeli spokesman talk about Gaza. Right now, no matter what it says it regrets, Israel is getting away with whatever it likes, without consequences. It’s up to the West, to impose some. This would be a start. Former supreme court judges say UK arming Israel breaches international law. Will it stop them, I don’t know, but we should not be selling them weapons
Biden calls for ‘immediate ceasefire’ in Gaza. This is all well and good but what is Biden going to do when there is no ceasefire. They don’t care, they don’t have enough respect for the superpower that has funded them for years, not to shout in meetings Top Israeli official Ron Dermer began yelling during a meeting with U.S. officials about Gaza, officials say. Consequences, they need some…
Unfortunately, Gaza isn’t the only place that’s a bin fire.
There’s Haiti. Top UN expert warns of deteriorating situation in Haiti: ‘It’s apocalyptic’
Zimbabwe. Zimbabwean president declares state of disaster due to drought
Ukraine. Ukraine war briefing: Russia warns France against deploying troops to Ukraine. 771 days in.
There are untold horrors everywhere at the moment, you can see why I’ve not done this for a while, can’t you?
‘They kept us alive for thousands of years’: could saving Palestinian seeds also save the world?
Neglected, derided and exploited more than ever: why won’t the UK protect those who rent a home?
Do you leave your home town or stay behind? It’s a question at the heart of British politics. I’m one of the lucky people who by virtual of the decisions of my grandparents and parents happened to be born in London. However, London isn’t the only place in the country and there’s no point in growing London if the rest of the country is stunted.
England’s ludicrous experiment in privatised water is coming to a messy end. Ma and I have been whinging about this for a while. In 2018 my water bill was £242.51, this year it’s £359.75. Thames record on sewage is bad enough but in the last 6 months I’ve lost water for the day on 3 separate occasions, which has never happened before. Shareholders have taken massive dividends and leveraged debt on Thames Water and it should not be on the taxpayer to bail them out, if we have to pay for the work that needs to be done, then it needs to be re-nationalised. In fact, while we’re at it, do the same for trains and energy!
The Zone of Interest is a portrait of guilt. No wonder it has divided opinion in Germany.
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Sunday Music: Champion the Wonder Horse
Last night Liza Tarbuck played this. Now I have it stuck in my head.
The back story is that I used to watch it with my dad on the Saturdays that Mum was working and Dad used to sing it all the time. Occasionally, I get it as an earworm, 40 odd years later I still know all the words..
From my brain to yours (again!)
Miscellany: A lot of time with doctors
Happy Thursday!
For those of you squeamish about women’s health (especially if you’re my brother!) look away now.

This is a quick catch up, February has been busy. I feel this is relatively important to have this out there because a while ago, I decided that I wasn’t going to be embarrassed or quiet about what was happening to me during in menopause or in my case peri menopause. There’s so much stuff that I didn’t know was menopause related that is and I thought I was fairly well educated. Also, 100 years ago, my great grandmother died after childbirth and my grandmother died at 49 because no one took her migraines seriously and her brain tumour grew. I’m keen that women’s health (of all sorts) is taken seriously and it can only be taken seriously if we are clear and unembarrassed about what’s happening and what needs to be done to solve the problems. No one without serious issue enjoys vaginal examinations but better to be a bit embarrassed for a smear test than having chemo for cervical cancer but we have to talk about it, most of the healthcare professionals I’ve deal with in gynaecology and even when having smear tests have been professional and go to great lengths to make you feel as comfortable as possible while doing their job, which is basically to help you. Here endeth the lesson.
So I’ve been taking HRT for about three and half years, for the last three or so, I’ve been having prolonged periods and bleeding. In the summer, I talked to the GP and had a scan and went onto a type of HRT that should have stopped all bleeding. It didn’t, I was still bleeding and periods went on forever with every period came a UTI. They have increased recently but I’ve had four since last August and that is too many antibiotics for one human! So in January, the GP referred me to the Menopause/HRT Clinic from Chelsea and Westminster Hospital.

I know the NHS is in crisis but all of this happened very quickly. The first appointment happened the week before last, blood test happened last week, this week I had a scan and today I had a hysteroscopy (if you ever have one, take all the drugs, insist on a local anaesthetic and take all the other painkillers they say. I did all that and it was still very painful.* However, overall I was surprised by how reassuring it was to be taken seriously, to have the clinicians tell me that it was a big deal and that it needed to be sorted. I started showing signs of per-menopause at 43 and while I haven’t been told it’s all in my head, I am a person that likes to know what to expect and until this month no one has sat down and explained why things are happening and what to look out for. In 2019, I was having episodes where I felt like I was coming down with flu, no temperature but shivering and feeling hot and cold. Eventually, I went to the doctor and was told it was a peri-menopause symptom, once I knew that, if it happened I could just go to bed and sleep through it but not knowing, I was beginning to wonder if it was malaria or just all in my head.
Anyway assuming the biopsy from today comes back fine, the problem is adenomyosis and a couple of fibroids (submucosal and intramural). Oestrogen is causing my uterine lining to thicken and the progesterone is supposed to stop that but it’s not. Basically, I’m not getting enough of either, the possible solution to this is a mirena coil which will give me a localised source of progesterone (as a bonus, the doctor thinks it’ll help with my migraines). The patches will be oestrogen only and have topical oestrogen for the UTI’s.
I’m told that the next six months or so may be rocky but the bleeding should stop and it should all settle down. Fingers crossed.

Other things I’ve learnt about myself in all of this, my blood pressure is good, I’m not diabetic (which is another cause of frequent UTI’s), I have slightly elevated cholesterol but like .3 above the range (my mum and my uncle have elevated cholesterol too and a rise in HDL(bad) cholesterol with a lowering of LDL(good) cholesterol is a menopause symptom, so I’m very not surprised by that!) however, my ratio of LDL to HDL is still in the right place but worth keeping an eye on. My 10 year risk of a cardio vascular event is 5.56% so it’s good that I’ll be taking oestrogen for the next couple of years or so!
*Fortunately, it only really hurt for a short time and I’m used to bad period pain but in my limited experience it’s more painful than the information would have you think.
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Tagged 2024, february, February 2024, gynaecology, health, healthcare, hrt, menopause, NHS, perimenopause, women, women's health
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