Happy Monday!

So 2024 did not get off to the start I’d intended. The whole menopause/hysteroscopy/coil thing was not epic and is still ongoing (it’s much less painful and I’m still bleeding) but I’m feeling a bit more myself and it’s Spring, so 12 hours of light a day is always helpful especially when I’m miserable.

I’m not actually sure that I am miserable, nothing is really wrong, but I’m a bit stuck. So stuck, I went back into therapy because something is not working. There is a possibility that this is just menopause and I’m open to that, but I am on HRT and that doesn’t seem to be unsticking me.

This is the bit about being a grown up and having a depressive bent, that I really don’t like. Whether its depression rearing its head again or a menopause symptom, I need to deal with it or it’ll get worse. Dealing with it is the same as it’s always been, having and sticking to a routine, it’s taking my vitamins, it’s keeping the house organised, it’s going into the office, and making decent time for rest and activity. It’s showing up in my life and doing the work.

It drives me nuts, I’m good at flashes of brilliance not slow consistency, but this requires consistency and one foot in front of the other. So I’m back on my bullshit.

So this week, I’m aiming for two office days (probably Tuesday and Wednesday), 10pm bedtime, bringing back the golden hour and remembering to take my collagen and vitamins. Yeah, it’s pretty much my SAD protocol but in the Spring. A little focus never hurt.

I’m trying..