I’ve been running quite a bit over the past couple of weeks. The Nike+ app tells me it’s been 46.76km since I started (except there have been 3 runs that didn’t get logged due to ‘spotty’ GPS, which is Nike speak for it’s raining and boy, did it rain today.
Anyway, the exercise has been happening, crunchy knee and all, my eating has been less that great. Nothing to worry about, probably more pasta than I would normally eat and less vegetables, but no weight loss.
Honestly, I’m not too bothered, the weight loss will happen but (as I’ve been saying for the last year) weight not important if I can fit into smaller jeans! That’s happening and so I feel I’m moving in the right direction.
What’s more important than weight loss is mood control. I know, have known for years now, that regular exercise keeps all my types of moodiness under control, mild depression*, PMT and stress levels rising due to my lack of job and worry about paying the rent. I know that the only reason I got through Stef dying and the subsequent emotional chaos and trauma, was ’cause I got off my bum and went to the gym and that not finding exercise that I could do that didn’t cost a fortune when I was unemployed in 2009, made that time much worse emotionally that it needed to be (and it was pretty sucky anyway!).
So the running thing, isn’t only to make sure that I’m faster than my mum in July’s 10k and it’s not entirely because I want to fit into my clothes better or even so that I can keep up with this guy.
They’re all great side effects. Running is worth it because it prevents me from sitting on the sofa weeping because life sucks, it keeps my in control of my emotions and temper when PMT hits, it ensures, that at this point of my life, I’m calm and centred enough to apply for jobs, knowing that they’d be lucky to have me.
That’s why it’s important to me and that’s why I have to do it….
*I’m not talking about hard core medical depression here, that’s serious and needs doctors, pills and maybe therapy. If you have this type of depression don’t bite my head off, I know that exercise on it’s own won’t help, but I am talking about me, not you!