Wearing my favourite necklace

Wondering why the varnish on this finger always chips first

I’m spending time working on not being annoyed at tourists. Who walk too slow, stand on the wrong side of escalators and think that their suitcases deserve seats. As if being jammed on a train isn’t bad enough.

I think the key word for the day is frustrated.

I’m just not getting everything I want to do done, I don’t feel that I’m doing the things I do accomplish well, I feel out of control and that I might never be in control again.

Then I realise that it’s nonsense. I’ve done loads this week, I’ve walked 5km a day, I’ve made the bed every day, I’ve packed a lunch and a breakfast every day, I’ve seen a movie (Much Ado About Nothing it was really good although I can’t decide if I’m getting into the rhythm of  Shakespeare or this was just much easier to understand!), washed the dishes every night, booked an appointment for a medical. Yes I have things that I need to do, there’s ironing, I need to be more aware of my need to go to bed early, I need to spend some time writing posts for here, I need to finish the picture wall in the kitchen, I need to add up my points for the Super Summer Challenge…

Overall though, things are getting done, I’m doing them. What I really need to do is make peace with ‘never finished’ and ‘good enough’. Daily life is about accepting both of those things and getting on with it anyway.  I’m not good at that, if I can’t do it right, I’m more likely to just stop trying. Which is a ridiculous way to live. You have to keep trying because everytime you do it, you find a different way to improve it. This is a lesson I’m learning with making the sourdough, now I need to apply it to my everyday life!