When anyone asked me what my plans were for this weekend, I said that I was “getting my fringe back”. Yes, folks haircut time had rolled around again and not a moment too soon. I’m well trained and don’t cut my fringe between haircuts, Jane always knows!
So I spent Friday Night at Ma’s. It’s been ages since I’ve spent a night at Ma’s and I got to see her picture wall in her kitchen! She stole the idea from me but her’s is looking in better shape than mine is at the moment.
We had dinner and did the crossword and on Saturday morning got up to go and grab the zipcar and get to Jane’s. Where we caught up on all the news, gossip and general excitement in all all our lives over the last six weeks although nowadays a lot of that news is about Jane’s kids and Oli and how on earth did we all get to be so old? When the most exciting stuff, is Nic fell down the stairs, Jane and Mark are going to see Robbie Williams and Bryony (Jane’s last daughter) is old enough to go on school trips, you know you’re not in your 20’s anymore! It was good to catch up and have Jane restore order to our hair
After that, Ma took me home via a Sainsburys shop, we had been planning on going to the crematorium to visit Grandad’s plague‘ but it was raining quite a lot and I was headachey and feeling that this might be a migraine. So Ma dropped me home and unpacked the shopping and went to bed for a nap. Four hours later, I woke up, feeling much better but sad that I’d missed Grace again, this year has not been good for my Grace attendance..
On Sunday, I woke up sad. This happens sometimes, I wake up and life just doesn’t feel worth living, I feel useless and fat and alone and I don’t want to do anything because what’s the point? Sad days are much less frequent than they used to be and nowadays are more connected to PMT than the depression and grief I was walking through 5 years ago. Over the years, I found that the most effective way of dealing with myself when I feel like this is a combination of indulgence. Get in a bath, read a book and be sad for a bit. Followed by pulling myself together, getting out of the bath and doing the things that you need to do. Also not feeling guilty about being sad and followed by an early night and the knowledge that tomorrow I’ll feel better.
So that’s what I did!
This was some of the food prep for this week’s dinners. Hard boiled eggs for breakfast, salad and frittata for lunches, popcorn and dried fruit, blueberry lemon muffin loaf for snacks, soup and black bean burgers for dinners. The other stuff not photographed are the oven dried tomatoes, stuffed aubergines for dinner, and pb and apples for snacks.
I think I’m covered and ready to start the week! This week is going to consist of work, seeing Tina tonight, theatre on Saturday and hoping that the bruise on my behind stops hurting!
Nic Dempsey 